Amazing Love

I'm sure that we all have loving children but how amazing is that love when we need it the most? This week I have recalled and experienced that amazing love once again and I'd like to share that with you all.
Ever have a day where you are just barely making it through? Where your body hurts and your heart is in shambles? Your mind is filled with sadness and emptiness and you just know that the only remedy is your bed? You can't help but make sandwiches for dinner, turn on the TV, and beg God for a break? I have had my moments.
This weekend was like all the others. Nice, productive and beautiful. I took it all in with one breath and exhaled peace. I had no issues. But in a matter of moments my sadness and perhaps my uncertainties found me. I was driving so it wasn't like the earth stood still but my heart did. I found myself in the middle of one of my daughters stories rattled with sadness.
Now, I'm a mom. I didn't want to show my daughter something was wrong with me. I pumped the music and made for a happy day. After all it was beautiful day and moms... they're tough as steel.
It took one low "uuuhhh" and no eye contact for my daughter to ask "Hey mom is something wrong?" Of course I said "Yeah, I'm fine." I swear someone must have programmed that dam sentence in women's heads all over the world. But her intuition was dead on. If we know our children like the back of our hands I am positive children know their parents very well too. They must! How else do they blackmail and manipulate us? ;)
The tears ran down my face as I still tried to keep it together. "I'm tired that's all." Yeah right, she must of thought. What am I two? She asked questions. I answered but kept it brief. One thing stopped my tears. Okay, maybe two.
One, I never looked at her and two, she said "It's okay mom things will get better but please don't cry or I'll start crying." I heard the quiver in her voice. Let one last frustrated tear fall and it was over.
We are so strong for our children and they are so strong for us. Thank you God that I live for my child's happiness and she lives for mine.